Administrator Altostrata Posted May 14, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 14, 2018 Yes, it's important for you to sleep. Still, your sleep schedule is inverted. Are any other family members able to share dementia watch with you? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 15, 2018 Author Share Posted May 15, 2018 5/14/2018 - Busy day... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, cereal, milk, chicken sandwich, chicken nuggets, waffle fries, lemonade, iced tea, ribs, loaded baked potato, chocolate cake, applesauce Exercise: walking Quality of life: 4 out of 10 3:00 AM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 9 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
AliG Posted May 15, 2018 Share Posted May 15, 2018 It would be wise to make contact , rather than being so cut off. Rather than ignore ~ tell us how you are. How are you ? Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
AliG Posted May 15, 2018 Share Posted May 15, 2018 How are you 18 hours ago, Altostrata said: Are any other family members able to share dementia watch with you? ?? . Many SSRI's and SSNRI's over 20 years. Zoloft for 7 years followed by Effexor, Lexapro, Prozac, Cymbalta, Celexa, Pristiq, Valdoxan, Mianserin and more - on and off. No tapering. Cold turkey off Valdoxan - end of May 2014 Psych Drug - free since May 2014 . Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 16, 2018 Author Share Posted May 16, 2018 5/15/2018 - I feel like I can barely function. A few days ago, my brand of the .5 mg of Klonopin was switched from Teva to Mylan because they ran out of the Teva brand. So it was either take the Mylan brand or get nothing. I wonder if this has anything to do with how I'm feeling since I'm on 2 mg of the Teva brand and 1 mg of the Mylan brand now? My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, cereal, milk, chicken nuggets, mozzarella sticks, key lime pie, cheese crackers, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 10 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 16, 2018 Author Share Posted May 16, 2018 On 5/14/2018 at 1:05 PM, Altostrata said: Yes, it's important for you to sleep. Still, your sleep schedule is inverted. Are any other family members able to share dementia watch with you? No, it's just the three of us in the house. I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 16, 2018 Author Share Posted May 16, 2018 18 hours ago, AliG said: It would be wise to make contact , rather than being so cut off. Rather than ignore ~ tell us how you are. How are you ? I didn't see Alto's post until now because I did a quick reply and it went onto page 11 while still leaving me on page 10. I'm more concerned about the Klonopin brand switch now than anything. I describe this above. I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skeeter Posted May 16, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 16, 2018 Zant, If you noticed a change right after switching brands, yes, I am sure this is your issue. I revently had a non-SA medication switched from Mylan to another brand, and I felt so awful that I actually had to go and get my normal brand because I was so very sick. Maybe call the pharmacy, and tell them you are not tolerating the brand change AT ALL. Be well, Skeeter Current meds: Lexapro 20mg, Valium 6.25mg Current status: September 2018 forced to go down to 10mg of Valium/Diazepam from around 15mg, with the plan to have me totally of in 2 more months. I was not given a chance to give input at tapering at this speed, please go much, much slower. Luckily I found a new doctor, but was thrown off course by my rapid taper, as of 2/19 am down to 6.25mg, and am stable. Will update with dates of taper ASAP. Read my history here: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/12819-skeeters-journey/ I am NOT a doctor. My opinions are just that- MY opinions, based on my personal experiences and research, but your experience and reactions may differ greatly, we are all different! I maintain that a doctor educated in withdrawal is the best place to get info or to get the "go ahead" before changing your medications in any way! Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 16, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 16, 2018 Zant, are there any services in your community for caregivers? You need a break for yourself once in a while. You also need to make some time to get a little exercise. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 18, 2018 Author Share Posted May 18, 2018 5/17/2018 - I skipped the entry for the 16th. I've just been extremely busy with a ton of other stuff in addition to dealing with withdrawal. My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, cereal, milk, fried shrimp, salad, key lime pie, chocolate donut, cheese crackers, peanut butter crackers, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 12:30 AM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 12 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 18, 2018 Author Share Posted May 18, 2018 On 5/16/2018 at 2:42 AM, Skeeter said: Zant, If you noticed a change right after switching brands, yes, I am sure this is your issue. I revently had a non-SA medication switched from Mylan to another brand, and I felt so awful that I actually had to go and get my normal brand because I was so very sick. Maybe call the pharmacy, and tell them you are not tolerating the brand change AT ALL. Be well, Skeeter I am on a staggered schedule for refilling my prescriptions right now because of the way the Klonopin is classified as Schedule IV substance. So basically, around the first of the month, the Klonopin gets filled and in the middle of the month the Depakote Sprinkles and Anafranil gets filled. So last night I went and I picked up my Anafranil and Depakote Sprinkles. I mentioned to the pharmacist about the difference in brands for the Klonopin. I was told that even in the beginning of June, they do not anticipate having any Teva brand in stock. I'm not sure exactly why this is but when I searched for "teva lawsuit" on Google, I can certainly see that the company isn't doing well and that may be why there won't be anymore Teva brand Klonopin even though I go to one of the largest and well-known pharmacy chains in the world. It appears at this point it is either take whatever brand of Klonopin they give me or don't take any Klonopin and cold turkey from 3 mg to 0 mg which I know from stupid psychiatrists doing this to me while in inpatient because of their insane "benzos are bad, take antipsychotics instead" philosophy it won't lead anywhere good. I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 18, 2018 Author Share Posted May 18, 2018 On 5/16/2018 at 2:21 PM, Altostrata said: Zant, are there any services in your community for caregivers? You need a break for yourself once in a while. You also need to make some time to get a little exercise. Can you elaborate on what you mean by caregiver? As in having someone come into the house at night time or as in having my stepfather sent to a nursing home? My mother is very "frugal" when it comes to everything. She has a lot of money saved but she would rather suffer by trying to take care of someone with dementia herself instead of putting him in a nursing home. She is brainwashed by the concept of marriage and unfortunately bound by the legal problems it causes. She seems to have this belief that as soon as my stepfather goes into a nursing home, they are going to take so much of her life savings away per month that she'll be bankrupt and won't have enough for her own nursing home needs later on in life. They both have Medicare, so I don't really understand how such a scenario can occur. Right now, I'm focused on having enough savings and income flowing in so that I can move to southern California (where it would be much easier to get the exercise you mentioned because of the weather and culture) and get away from this nightmare of a state where you can't drive more than a mile without seeing another corrupt pharmaceutical company. I'm getting closer to my goal each month and I hope to be gone by this December. My move also depends on my success or failure in getting off the Depakote Sprinkles and still being able to sleep on just Klonopin and Anafranil. I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 18, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 18, 2018 You and your mother are caregivers for your father. You spend a great deal of your time caring for him. Caregivers need respite, too. Good plan to move elsewhere for independence. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus Skeeter Posted May 19, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 19, 2018 Zant, Is there another approved pharmacy with your insurance? I literally had to call around to 10 pharmacies to find a specific brand of medication before. It is better than suffering the change of "whatever brand they have in stock" roulette! Just a thought... I think Alto was talking about having someone coming in for a little while to give you and your mother a rest. It is actually quite common. If your mother belongs to a community center or church, or have friends, they may know someone that will come in for just a little while a week, so you two can relax just a bit... May have to pay hourly, but going to dinner or a movie can be wonderful for the soul. Be well! Skeeter Current meds: Lexapro 20mg, Valium 6.25mg Current status: September 2018 forced to go down to 10mg of Valium/Diazepam from around 15mg, with the plan to have me totally of in 2 more months. I was not given a chance to give input at tapering at this speed, please go much, much slower. Luckily I found a new doctor, but was thrown off course by my rapid taper, as of 2/19 am down to 6.25mg, and am stable. Will update with dates of taper ASAP. Read my history here: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/12819-skeeters-journey/ I am NOT a doctor. My opinions are just that- MY opinions, based on my personal experiences and research, but your experience and reactions may differ greatly, we are all different! I maintain that a doctor educated in withdrawal is the best place to get info or to get the "go ahead" before changing your medications in any way! Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 21, 2018 Author Share Posted May 21, 2018 5/20/2018 - I skipped the entries for the 18th and 19th. I'm still extremely busy with other stuff in addition to dealing with withdrawal. My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, cereal, milk, corned beef, potatoes, chocolate cookies, chocolate donut, cheese crackers, peanut butter crackers, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 15 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 21, 2018 Author Share Posted May 21, 2018 On 5/18/2018 at 1:25 PM, Altostrata said: You and your mother are caregivers for your father. You spend a great deal of your time caring for him. Caregivers need respite, too. Good plan to move elsewhere for independence. On 5/19/2018 at 11:18 AM, Skeeter said: Zant, Is there another approved pharmacy with your insurance? I literally had to call around to 10 pharmacies to find a specific brand of medication before. It is better than suffering the change of "whatever brand they have in stock" roulette! Just a thought... I think Alto was talking about having someone coming in for a little while to give you and your mother a rest. It is actually quite common. If your mother belongs to a community center or church, or have friends, they may know someone that will come in for just a little while a week, so you two can relax just a bit... May have to pay hourly, but going to dinner or a movie can be wonderful for the soul. Be well! Skeeter I'll be seeing my pdoc this week so I'm going to have the pdoc try and help me with some solutions for these issues. I'll ask the pdoc nicely so I don't wind up in with another forced inpatient hospitalization...I promise! I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 21, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 21, 2018 8 hours ago, Zant808 said: 5/20/2018 - I skipped the entries for the 18th and 19th. I'm still extremely busy with other stuff in addition to dealing with withdrawal. My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, cereal, milk, corned beef, potatoes, chocolate cookies, chocolate donut, cheese crackers, peanut butter crackers, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 15 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep Have your symptoms gotten worse since you reduced Depakote 2 weeks ago? What times of day do you take your drugs, and at what dosages? Your diet is remarkable for its complete lack of green vegetables. You get B vitamins for your nervous system and other essential nutrients from greens. Eat fresh green veg. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 22, 2018 Author Share Posted May 22, 2018 5/21/2018 - I'm still extremely busy with other stuff in addition to dealing with withdrawal. My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, cereal, milk, corned beef, potatoes, chocolate cookies, lemon cake, cheese crackers, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 16 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 23, 2018 Author Share Posted May 23, 2018 5/22/2018 - Busy, busy, busy... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, chicken marsala, salad, chocolate cookies, lemon cake, cheese crackers, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 17 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 23, 2018 Author Share Posted May 23, 2018 On 5/21/2018 at 1:52 PM, Altostrata said: Have your symptoms gotten worse since you reduced Depakote 2 weeks ago? What times of day do you take your drugs, and at what dosages? Your diet is remarkable for its complete lack of green vegetables. You get B vitamins for your nervous system and other essential nutrients from greens. Eat fresh green veg. My symptoms haven't gotten any better or worse since reducing the Depakote Sprinkles by 25 mg a little over 2 weeks ago. I specify the time that I take my medications in every entry towards the bottom. I agree about the green vegetables...unless you count lettuce as a nutrient-rich green vegetable. I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 23, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 23, 2018 Nope, no med schedule in your signature. The Klonopin alone may be causing a lot of your symptoms. We need the schedule. Looks like your Depakote taper is going okay. Please make an effort to eat a large amount of seriously green veg every day. You'd be surprised how important this is. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 24, 2018 Author Share Posted May 24, 2018 5/23/2018 - Busy, busy, busy... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, spaghetti and meatballs, garlic bread, salad, chocolate cookies, lemon cake, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 12:30 AM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 18 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 24, 2018 Author Share Posted May 24, 2018 19 hours ago, Altostrata said: Nope, no med schedule in your signature. The Klonopin alone may be causing a lot of your symptoms. We need the schedule. Looks like your Depakote taper is going okay. Please make an effort to eat a large amount of seriously green veg every day. You'd be surprised how important this is. I'll make more of a conscious effort with buying green vegetables next time I go food shopping. My mom and I alternate and she actually just went food shopping yesterday. I haven't really looked at what she bought other than snacks though. The med schedule isn't in my forum signature, but it is in every one of my recent posts in this thread. I'll just repost what I posted above and bold/italtic the time I took the meds: 5/23/2018 - Busy, busy, busy... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, spaghetti and meatballs, garlic bread, salad, chocolate cookies, lemon cake, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 12:30 AM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 18 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 24, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 24, 2018 You're taking 3mg Klonopin once a day? Your body will feel better if you get some exercise. To start, you can make up your own routine of gentle stretching for an hour in the house. Even washing floors or vacuuming can give you some exercise. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 25, 2018 Author Share Posted May 25, 2018 5/24/2018 - Busy, busy, busy... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, hot dogs, sweet potato fries, salad, chocolate cookies, lemon cake, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 19 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 26, 2018 Author Share Posted May 26, 2018 5/25/2018 - I felt horrible all day. I could barely even eat dinner and could only lay around until about 9:30 at night. How awful... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, flounder, mixed vegetables, salad, chocolate cookies, lemon cake, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 20 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 27, 2018 Author Share Posted May 27, 2018 5/26/2018 - I'm feeling more depressed than usual but I was still feeling better than yesterday. My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, cereal, cheese omelette, chocolate chip pancakes, beef tips, jasmine rice, salad, chocolate cookies, lemon cake, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 21 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 28, 2018 Author Share Posted May 28, 2018 5/27/2018 - My system just feels completely burned out again. My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, cereal, cheeseburger, sweet potato fries, chocolate shake, chicken wings, lemonade, iced tea, chocolate cake, peanut butter crackers, apples, applesauce Exercise: walking Quality of life: 4 out of 10 2:00 AM - 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 22 of cutting to 425 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted May 28, 2018 Administrator Share Posted May 28, 2018 The sluggishness is probably because of Klonopin and Anafranil. For God's sake, eat something green. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted May 29, 2018 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted May 29, 2018 7 hours ago, Altostrata said: eat something green Thank you Alto, I'm trying to take your advice. I've just eaten some bought baked vegies (with Tuscan seasoning) and bought chicken and added lettuce, tomato and capsicum. I really enjoyed it. It also surprised me that it was okay to eat salad with hot food. Next time I shop I will pick up some baby spinach leaves. * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 29, 2018 Author Share Posted May 29, 2018 5/28/2018 - Celebrated Memorial Day by reducing from 425 mg of Depakote Sprinkles to 400 mg. My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, cereal, ribs, french fries, chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter crackers, apples, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 400 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 1 of cutting to 400 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 29, 2018 Author Share Posted May 29, 2018 On 5/24/2018 at 12:43 PM, Altostrata said: You're taking 3mg Klonopin once a day? Your body will feel better if you get some exercise. To start, you can make up your own routine of gentle stretching for an hour in the house. Even washing floors or vacuuming can give you some exercise. I'll try to explain the way I take the medications. Two years ago when I was inpatient, I had to take 6 different types of psychiatric medications before I was able to be released. In the hospital, I hated having to take everything at once at at 10:00 PM. I was also told to go last because I had so many pills to take since I was taking up too much time at the nurse's window. So now when I put down that I take my medications at 11:30 PM for example, I start out by just taking a single 125 mg capsule of Depakote Sprinkles. Then I wait about an hour and take another 125 mg capsule of Depakote Sprinkles. Once again, I wait about an hour and take another 125 mg capsule of Depakote Sprinkles. Then I wait about a half hour and take the remaining amount of Depakote Sprinkles that I am supposed to take with applesauce. Then I wait another half hour and take the 3 mg of Klonopin. Then I wait another half hour and take the 25 mg of Anafranil. If I'm going to try exercising again, I really need to go to a gym and work my way up. However, nobody really follows the rules at the gym and people will still come in there and workout while sick, they don't clean the equipment etc. and I wind up getting sick myself. As for the green vegetables, I had some the other day when I put down mixed vegetables but again I still have to take care of this when food shopping. Wouldn't taking one of those men's formula type of vitamins be a good substitute for improper nutrition for now? I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
dj2010 Posted May 29, 2018 Share Posted May 29, 2018 21 minutes ago, Zant808 said: As for the green vegetables, I had some the other day when I put down mixed vegetables but again I still have to take care of this when food shopping. Wouldn't taking one of those men's formula type of vitamins be a good substitute for improper nutrition for now? taking these type of vitamin supplements in withdrawal is risky and may make symptoms worse, I tried many supplements in the early months of withdrawal and 90% of them I could not tolerate and they worsened my insomnia, if you do try then start with a tiny amount first to see how react, you will be better buying lots of different vegetables and some fruits (organic if can) and start making green smoothies every day, it is a very easy way to get all the nutrients you need, im sat here with a green smoothie as I am typing this, have a read of this thread here it may give you some ideas: you need to ditch the chocolate chip cookies and cakes, processed foods etc as these are full of sugar and other rubbish which is the last thing our body's need while trying to heal, they will no doubt be worsening any symptoms you have and causing inflammation, hope you find some relief take care 2001 - 2005 prozac, 2001 - 2017 various benzos, mainly diazapem and zanex, 2002 - 2017 olanzapine or seroquel, 2002 -2017 propanolol, 2005 - 2009 venlafaxine 75mg , forced to go cold turkey off venlafaxine as moved Thailand, doctor cut me off and couldn't get it there, severely ill for over 2 years, countered withdrawals with more zanex and seroquel 2014 returned to UK, mainly to get treatment getting off meds doctor advised to taper seroquel over a few weeks, severely ill and bed bed-bound so reinstated it, 2015 tapered seroquel myself slower over a few months, was off it 2 months and was too ill so went on olanzapine, became zombie and too tired to get out of bed, went back on seroquel, very depressed so went back on venlafaxine, didnt work so doctor swapped to zoloft became very agitated so back on venlafaxine June 2016 - felt strong enough to begin tapering again, started what I thought was a slow taper of all meds, 2016 July Not had any alcoholic drink since this date, 2016 October completely off diazepem, 2017 Feb completely off seroquel, 2017 March completely off proponanlol, 2017 April (day before birthday) completely off venlafaxine, OFF ALL MEDS 11/4/2017, was fine for nearly 3 months and then delayed withdrawal hit, supplements taking: turmeric capsules, NiaCel (nicotinamide riboside), Vit B12 sublingual, Vit B3, Vit B6, Vit B1, apple cider vinegar, manuka umf 10 honey, camu camu powder, melatonin when needed, epsom salt baths, juices, smoothies, Intro: http://survivingantidepressants.org/topic/15175-dj2010-off-all-meds-for-3-months-and-been-fine-now-bad-insomnia/ Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 30, 2018 Author Share Posted May 30, 2018 5/29/2018 - I switched to a new scale to weigh the Depakote Sprinkles. I will post the new Depakote Sprinkles withdrawal information here: Depakote Sprinkles Scale Info Old scale's bowl is approximately 2.705 grams New scale's bowl is approximately 2.374 grams 125 mg Depakote Sprinkles Contents Inside weighs = .250 grams 125 mg = .125 grams normally .5 mg of medication per sprinkle or 2 mg of medication per sprinkle? .5 mg Depakote = .001 grams 1 mg Depakote = .002 grams 1.25 mg Depakote = .0025 grams 2.5 mg Depakote = .005 grams 5 mg Depakote = .01 grams 10 mg Depakote = .02 grams 12.5 mg Depakote = .025 grams 25 mg Depakote = .0500 grams 50 mg Depakote = .1 grams 62.5 mg Depakote = .125 grams 75 mg Depakote = .15 grams 100 mg Depakote = .2 grams 125 mg Depakote = .250 grams My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, cereal, orange chicken, jasmine rice, salad, chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 400 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 2 of cutting to 400 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted May 31, 2018 Author Share Posted May 31, 2018 5/30/2018 - Nothing interesting happened today... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, cereal, beef taquitos, salad, chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 400 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 3 of cutting to 400 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
Zant808 Posted June 1, 2018 Author Share Posted June 1, 2018 5/31/2018 - Busy, busy, busy... My symptoms: PSSD, insomnia, anxiety, confusion, memory loss, no motivation, depression, nightmares, paranoia Summary and Schedule: Total sleep: somewhere between 6 and 8 hours Diet: bottled water, milk, cereal, ravioli, garlic bread, salad, chocolate chip cookies, chocolate donut, peanut butter crackers, apples, banana, applesauce Exercise: none Quality of life: 4 out of 10 11:30 PM - 400 mg of Depakote Sprinkles (Day 4 of cutting to 400 mg), 3 mg Klonopin, 25 mg Anafranil 8:00 AM - attempt to sleep I've been on dozens of psychiatric medications starting with being forced to take Prozac back as a minor in the mid 1990s. All doctors would cold turkey me from medications. I did not learn about withdrawal until the mid 2000's by reading Dr. Breggin's books and finding sites similar to this one. I had one successful full cleansing from medication in 2007 and began to recover from some of the iatrogenic damages. I started to drink alcohol in 2008 to try and recover from PSSD and then about 6 months later, I lost my ability to sleep and was put into an inpatient psychiatric facility and redrugged. The only med combination that has allowed me to sleep was 1250 mg of Depakote ER and 3 mg Klonopin. However, my quality of life is terrible on these meds. I want to try to get off everything now once again. I have failed a couple of times trying to come off these meds recently but will try again once I can find a psychiatrist who understands withdrawal and can support me. UPDATE: I have not consumed any alcohol in over 10 years. May 2019 - I started to reduce Anafranil very slowly so I can see a PSSD specialist. I also plan on trying stem cell therapy to repair my iatrogenic brain damage. Current meds: 1125 mg Depakote Sprinkles, 3 mg Klonopin Current side effects: PSSD, insomnia, odd sleep schedule, anhedonia, lack of motivation, cognitive issues, memory loss, hair loss, weight gain, dry mouth Link to comment
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