Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 16, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 16, 2016 I caught your healing vibes AliG! It must be your birthday. Super duper excellent day today! And......feeling confident I can keep it going........I just did some sprinkler adjustments and found a whole bunch of things that I need to fix and want to........emphasis on the want to.........do it myself it ness on a few projects. Probably the Tazo tea effect on me again. Sure love that stuff. Definitely Casper......my higher power. Lovely weather here in paradise. Low 80's.......winds that often sound like the ocean if I close my eyes. Alternating with lightening storms that if I am in the right viewing spot can be an amazing show of nature. I thought my car was getting hit with bullets the other day while driving.......turned out to be a brief, high impact hail storm........followed by full clearing and morning beauty. The racoon who was visiting moved on.......hopefully not in........they often nest in the fireplace shaft or walls or above ceiling areas.........I really don't think it had an in to do that though. Rocky visited the threshold of my garage twice though. The deer are still traveling. The bushes are filling in. Betsey Ross is due for her annual shave of her coat and groom as well as shots. Just......a good, good, decent day. Yay. My second thirty day chip since starting AA last late summer/early fall.......which I wasn't even going to collect........but glad I did........was better.......at least different from the first one........a muted maroon with a bit more weight to it and different texture. My first was a really shiny red one. So it was worth the slight stress of having to get up to get it and the hug and then say something about how I did it.......I was still shaky and humbled after spending time with my sponsor(one of them) and working, working the steps and program with new eyes. Didn't say much but thank you. Joy was a good movie.......redbox new release. Jennifer Lawrence had the lead and was great. Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 17, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 17, 2016 Well yah.....this is tough. "They" are starting to say forget everything else I learned.......coping, etc. My AA pals. Keep it simple and stupid- KISS.......can add smart azz. Grateful for 7 hours of sleep. Food to eat. A roof over my head. Green in the mountains now, plenty of water in the streams and reservoirs Cars that run. Money in the bank. SA. AA. Hip flexor pain that is now relieved. Patience shown toward me. Tears. Laughter. The wisdom of others. Casper my higher power. My one cup of mocha coffee. Day 33 begins. Grant me the serenity......... About a year off the salts. 20 mos. off escitalopram. And many more. Searching and fearless..........inventory so far in my head...... So much of "my story" started with alcohol and addiction........I will keep going..........with the program......... Try and try and try some more to get a few more practical things taken care of.............. Grant me the serenity............... Doris was an okay movie. Redbox rental. Reminded me a bit too much of me. Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 18, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 18, 2016 Well......a "wilderness" group was in one of the rooms today.......younger people. They apparently go in and out of some wilderness areas and then back to town for meetings on occasion. Many of the youth from the East Coast so that was nice. So......my new plan.....lol.........Wilderness Withdrawal Experiences for the 55 and overs......age wise. I'll take you of course into the program if younger......natural food gatherers or something........runners........baggage carriers? Weighers and measurers of dosages for slow titration? I imagine I could charge a hefty rate and all. I will call it the WWE! It's not so bad.....the meetings, the program........equal parts sold on their diagnosis and psycho medications as those who are not so unlike me.......having come off some of the stuff I got so dependent on......plus the realization of the addict/alcoholic mind at such a late date. So.......room for educating and/or referral here......while others I just must let be or share my experience only. My medications created a dependent situation(prior to knowledge gained mostly here) and the herb, well........and alcohol in the past.........addictive type stuff. Just to be clear. Heck.....the medications could have created in me the alcoholic mind type.......who knows? Anyway......helpful.......the program and thankful. Very thankful. Good enough. Peaceful, serene. .......maybe to a Sundance too!!!!! Native American cool ceremony. And rescheduled for a therapy appointment coming soon. Another good day. Thank you. Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 19, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 19, 2016 mmt - I read a really interesting book about the placebo effect. Cure: a journey into the science of the mind by Jo Marchant. I was able to borrow it as an ebook from my local library. Well, nothing at the library......and my library does now have ebooks too. I haven't tried an ebook yet though.....and I could probably get one of the younger or more technology advanced staff there to help me get it on my phone for the allotted time period. . I did find it, Cure, on Amazon for only $12.00 with shipping......not too bad, may do that or see if it's at one of the bookstores and hang on out reading it there.....if so......if it is. I do have a Pema Chodrun book on my phone anyway.......unfortunately I have to be online to read it now.......at one point it downloaded from google play but I can no longer find it in my downloads. Probably neither here nor there........just an example of my difficulties with technology at times.......and it does get tedious reading from the smallish screen of my somewhat large smart phone or while sitting at my desktop. I guess I am complaining here. Anyway......loved that you gave me a book suggest scallywag......and will do my best to at least skim through it somehow. Compassion, MMT Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 20, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 20, 2016 Question? Can anyone suggest what I might or may or could consider doing as far as.........splitting my generic trileptal dose in 2 doses.......rather than just the 1 I take at bedtime? Would that be further disruption to my now healing and neuroregeneration? It would be pretty easy to do so and still stay within the no greater than 10 percent reductions now. Doing a bit improved with the neuroemotions not being as difficult...... Just wondering though if it would keep me calmer and more meditative perhaps through the whole day better. As it is I mix up a 2 day supply from a 150mg. tablet and use it within 2 days. I don't think it keeps well after that......from what I have gleaned here.......if it does, enlighten me on that as well........because then.......pretty soon....... I could get three doses out of one tab liquified. Always economizing.......lol. I do use a plastic container to mix and store it in........the fridge.......in a brown paper sack........10 ml. oral syringes work well, they seem to have enough gradients and if need be I just round up the decreased dosage. A fairly inspired early morning here. The huge bluebird has some noisy babies in the trees out in back........they are huge for bird babies too! The deer are back and I am happy to report that they like the neighbors springtime foliage as well as my mostly thriving now yew bushes. No further sighting of Rocky raccoon.......which is nice I suppose........wondering though if he has nested somewhere in my attic or something though........ Still somewhat stray cat hanging back about and it hasn't quite forgotten that one feeding I gave it.......but is probably doing well enough with the mice in the fields nearby.........and somewhat gives old Betsey Ross cat a bit of a friendship I think. Thankfully I think she or he??? is out of heat now..........pheww.........that calling stuff is for the birds..........sounds more like a dying baby moaning or something. Pretty certain that I will go to a portion of the 4 day Sundance ceremony today up in one of the canyons about an hour away. Ahhhh......nature and new experiences! Spiritual happy making I hope. Happy Summer Solstice.......even to you Aussies and other hemispheres it must be kind of the same?? Even though it is now fallish and pre winter? The longest day is today.......lightwise and all. Yay!!! Love, compassion, MMT Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus scallywag Posted June 20, 2016 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 20, 2016 mmt: Ont this page at drugs.com on trileptal, you'll see that trileptal is often prescribed in split doses (2 a day). In fact, the first sentence is: All dosing should be given in a twice-a-day regimen. Hope that's helpful. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.1997-1999 Effexor; 2002-2005 Effexor XR 37.5 mg linear taper, dropping same #beads/week with bad results Cymbalta 60 mg 2012 - 2015; 2016: 20 mg to 7 mg exact doses and dates in this post; 2017: 6.3 mg to 0.0 mg Aug. 12; details here scallywag's IntroductionOnline spreadsheet for dose taper calculations and nz11's THE WORKS spreadsheet Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 21, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 21, 2016 Always helpful scallywag. I'm going to just give it more thought for now........it might be better to just keep going the way I am with it..........some am's I am letharjo enough without risking a change that might make it worse.........so........still undecided. No Sundance but last nights moon was awesome. I also got to my first "daze". All the towns around here have their summertime days throughout the summer......so I thought this year I would try to hit them all. This first one.......had a nice lunch at but did not win the essential oil diffuser that I put my name in the raffle for. Also will try for the 2 bigger Arts festivals as well......the first of which starts later this week. The poor associate.......owes a bundle for co-pays and deductibles after his accident, and insurance can be really lousy that way. He did however win 2 free "covers" to go see a musician(s) in the City. Gratitude that my now second car passed inspection without a hitch AND the A/C works well in that car........as it is getting closer to triple digit heat here. Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 23, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 23, 2016 Better than just a good day today. Spectacular comes to mind. It just kept on getting better. And it's hot......triple digits in the City........having a black car is not conducive to staying real cool temperature wise. Especially once it's been sitting in the sun for any, even short period, of time.........the A/C becomes just a fan blowing slightly cooler air. I think it was the meeting I went to at the government offices..........peer financing and other related. A lot of mutual respect and understanding........and yah, once again, I can attest that this is a pretty good place for some progressive mental health care.........unrelated to psychoactive prescription drugs as the mainstay and that darn medical model that is so very outdated in these times. Had a good old walk last evening too. 45 minutes.........cute, cute llama sighting and conversation with them. And my hip flexor is still fine!! Just fine!!! Really good productive day. 8 hours of it........out of the once cave woman existence. Yay!! Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 28, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 28, 2016 Monday June 27th here in Paradise. Not sure that I like Mondays as much as I used to...... I am sipping my Bundaberg Blood Orange at the moment.......really good......from an Australian family owned business.........love the pop top mates........I may take it out on the veranda momentarily. Looking good for seeing Dr. Grace E. Jones this fall........and..........drumroll please..........she called and left me a msg. So I guess we are playing phone tag sort of now. She was going to call this am......but apparently Mondays can be busy/weird/crazy for others as well as me now(said sadly....as I used to love that feeling of having the whole week ahead....and will again). Hopefully she will be covered as an out of network Dr. and I will only be responsible for 30% of charges(depends on them really now, if they accept those terms.......hope so). I am actually feeling mostly well enough. Therapist last week.....s'okay. Sweet sweat lodge yesterday. Swim today and sauna. Out for lunch and meals with others a bit more often. And this Aussie drink just takes the cake. I just might do a trial of splitting my next 10 percent reduction into 2 doses.......I would go down to 50mg. total in a day but take 25 mg. in the am and 25 in the pm. I think it might be good........I would give it the 4-6 days or so to see how I adjust. Happy last week of June 2016.......s'okay. Thank you all as always Love, manymoretodays Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator brassmonkey Posted June 28, 2016 Moderator Share Posted June 28, 2016 Hi MMT-- several positive posts over several days, that's such great news. I'm so glad you're doing better. (((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))) 20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013. Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mgpw it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks. The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better. Final Dose 0.016mg. Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2017 "It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general." Stephen Hawking Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 29, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 29, 2016 ((((((brassmonkey))))))) back. I just spoke with Dr. Grace E. Jackson herself!!! Super duper excited to go see her this fall. Henceforth she will be called Dr. Grace. A brief conversation but just the same I am awestruck. Gathering information and getting that all to her by my fall appointment. Next up after that will read some on her website.......I think she has one that btdt found. And will keep you all posted.......I think this is going be great.......not only for validation of my experiences, but hopefully for a physician who really gets it, and might have a lot to offer to our community here. Awestruck.......starstruck........grateful.........happy..........hopeful.........cautiously still ecstatic Love, manymoretodays p.s. I did mention this community to her today and put it out there for consideration on her part if she would be willing to ?liase(have a liasion) a bit with us. Late 2023- gone to emeritus status, inactive, don't @ me, I can check who I've posted on, and I'm not really here like I used to be......thanks. Started with psycho meds/psychiatric care circa 1988. In retrospect, and on contemplation, situational overwhelm. Rounding up to 30 years of medications(30 medication trials, poly-pharmacy maximum was 3 at one time). 5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014) 12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever! Tapered @ 10% every 4 weeks, sometimes 2 weeks to 2016 Dec 16, medication free!! Longer signature post here, with current supplements. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016. And.....I quit smoking 11/2021. Lapsed. Redo of quit smoking 9/28/2022. Can you say Hallelujah?(took me long enough)💜 None of my posts are intended as medical advice. Please discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical provider. My success story: Blue skies ahead, clear sailing Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus manymoretodays Posted June 29, 2016 Author Moderator Emeritus Share Posted June 29, 2016 Okay........mellowed out on Dr. Grace. Not totally sure what she might have to offer...........after I replayed our conversation several times last night in my head. Hoping for the best anyway. And honestly.........just getting out of town here will be great. It sounds like a good time to go visit my Mum as well..........
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