300days Posted October 22, 2021 Share Posted October 22, 2021 12 hours ago, Greatful said: @Bea81 Oh Bea, if I give up on you I would be giving up on myself🥰 I know for fact those that love you are not giving up on you. That is your distorted negative thinking. Yes, they may express some frustration at times. Remember they have that right. It is hard for people to watch the ones they love in so much pain. It also can be scary for them. They don't always know what to do or say. Talk to them about it, let them know that you really appreciate them and sometimes all you need to know is that they love you and support you. Remember you don't really understand what they are going through themselves. Just like they can only try to understand what you are going through. And yes, you will have times that it is harder, but don't believe that you can't heal, yes you can. Yes you do. Go back and reread some of the advice on meditation, debunking your thoughts, acceptance. Your thoughts are harming you more then WD is. You will never be able to reason with yourself. Here are some quotes I want you to print out and have with you around the house. It is my reaction to my symptoms and not my symptoms that were causing my suffering. The mind will never be able to cure the anxiety because it is causing it. You must shift your focus (attention) outside the mind. Your brain has convinced you that you must think about it. But it’s your brain that created the problem so it will never fix it. Find acceptance for only that day, do what little things you can do to get through just today. I know that depression is very hard but that to is just a passing thought, it will come and go. Have you tried visualization Assign the color black to depression, red for anger, green for jealousy, yellow for anxiety, panic, restlessness then visualize the dot's of color it in your brain away from you and say this is not me, this is WD and I it is only an experience that I am having. Sometimes this will center you to look at the real you and know that yeah that is not me. Then distract yourself. Remember dwelling or trying to run from your thoughts will only drag you in to the thought spiral and we all know where that lead too, frustration, more anxiety, more depression and worthlessness thinking and that you want to give up. If you have to do do this constantly at first so be it . This is were the meditation heals you learn to not get attached to your thought I know that it is easy to get overwhelmed with trying to learn this learn, do that. A big one is accepting were you are today and know that you are going to get through it. Then add in some skills to help you get through. There is nothing you can do about tomorrow except worry about it and do wishful thinking. Today is all you can really do anything about. So live for today. Then do this everyday. Rest assured you are no alone in this struggle and you are not weak. I have to work on this everyday, somedays are really hard and then somedays are easier.❤️ Give yourself a hug, say I love you and I am doing the best I can to yourself. Today if I feel crappy than okay that is what I feel today. Don't fight it and know that tomorrow will come❤️ thank you for this --- very helpful as I also struggle with the intense agitated dysphoria with terror and intrusive thoughts-- I love your colored dots idea! I think I'll make my intrusive thoughts bright orange! 9/2016 - "flowed" by levaquin; placed on small dose gabapentin and Xanax to help ease my CNS; 3/2017 - simply stopped the gabapentin and Xanax -- no issues 1/2020- put back on gabapentin and low dose Xanax after similar reaction anesthesia 2/2020- stopped the gabapentin; Xanax increased to 1mg; reduced it to .75 a few weeks later - very bad withdrawal; 3/2021 was updosed to 1.5mg of Xanax and put on 15mg of mirtazapine for sleep/appetite; also placed on VERY high doses of Hardy nutritionals by my doc; started slow micro taper of Xanax (got down to .65mg as of july 2021) 3/2021 - had to come off the supplements as my blood levels were off; tapered off over four months 7/2021 - bottom fell out; had to stop working; looping intrusive thoughts. suicidal ideation, tinnitus, skin burning, morning terror, anxiety that lasts each day until around 9pm then I am able to read, write, focus, a bit more calm 8/5/2021 - updosed to 1mg of Xanax in attempt to calm my system; didn't work - not worse but not better currently on 15mg of mirtazapine before bed and 1mg of Xanax dosed five times a day Link to comment
Ktven48 Posted October 22, 2021 Share Posted October 22, 2021 @300days im not sure if it was the vaccine - I just know my mood went downhill after and it made me mess with my updosing. After changing my mind about my updosing - I made a too fast reduction in Early September I started having the akathisia Dec 2017 Zoloft 3 nights - bad reaction end up in hospital // Jan 2018-Jan 2019- Venlafaxine 75mg Trazadone 200mgstarted in hospital // 2019-2020 - Slow venlafaxine taper ended up at 3 beads in mid 2020 pretty flawless taper with minimal withdrawal Symptoms was on 10-20mg PRN adderall during this time // Jan 2021-March 2021 Miscarriage, Adderall CT, Vaccine still on 3 beads // April 2021-July 2021 Start experiencing withdrawal type symptoms, depression anxiety not sure why - increased to 5-10 beads over two months // July 2021 Pregnant // August 2021 tried to wean down back to 3 beads // September 2021 Hard crash - insomnia, akathisia, panic attacks, cortisol rushes, constant adrenaline rushes, depression, no appetite, nausea on and off, muscle pain // current: October 7th Reinstated 37.5mg of Venlafaxine 200mg Trazadone // 5-10 mg of propranolol Clonazepam PRN last dose Oct 6th trying to stay off Supplements: Occasional L-theanine Prenatal mag citrate 400–600mg before bed Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted October 25, 2021 Mentor Share Posted October 25, 2021 @Bea81 Bea, how are you doing? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
zma1 Posted October 26, 2021 Share Posted October 26, 2021 Hi guys. I’m starting to taper sertraline so I’m reading through the site and came across this thread. If you have any kind of past trauma esp. diagnosed with PTSD, I highly suggest EMDR therapy. I started about 2nd the ago and I feel “lighter”. Although reducing my med is causing some weirdness I do believe EMDR therapy can help to resolve the reasons some folks may have started SSRIs in the first place. Sending healing vibes…😊 SERTRALINE current taper Oct 10, 2021: 18.75 mg dose/ 60mg weight; Nov 7, 2021: 15.6 mg dose/50mg weight; Nov 21, 2021: 12.5mg dose/40mg weight Dec 26, 2021: 9.4 mg dose/30mg weight; Jan 23, 2022: 6.25mg dose/20mg weight; Feb 13, 2022: crossover from 6.25mg dose tablet to 6.25mg dose/.31ml liquid; Mar 13 2022: 0.28 ml; Mar 27, 2022: 0.25ml (5 mg dose if my math is correct); Apr 3, 2022: 0.23ml; Apr 10, 2022: 0.22ml; Apr 16,2022: 0.20ml; Jun 5, 2022: 0.19 ml; June 19, 2022: 0.18ml; Sep 25, 2022: 0.17ml; Oct 23, 2022: 0.16ml; Nov 20, 2022: 0.15 ml; Jan 22, 2023: 0.14ml; slowly decreased over last year to Feb 1, 2024: 0.10ml; Apr 28, 2024: 0.09ml or 1.8mg; CURRENT SUPPLEMENTS Daily: Magnesium, micronized Progesterone 100mg, .75 bioidentical estrogen patch Periodically or as needed: Ibuprofen, Vitamin C, B-Complex, probiotics, Quercetin, Nasalcrom, Stinging Nettle, Vit D, Fish Oil, PREVIOUS DRUGS SERTRALINE Up and down mess: (Oct 2019-July 2021): 2021, July 14: 25 mg, 2021, Mar 17: 18.75 mg, 2021, Mar 9: 12.5 mg, 2021, Mar 1: 25 mg, 2020, May 29: 37.5 mg, 2020, Feb 19: 25 mg, 2020, Feb 1: 18.75 mg, 2019, Nov 2: 12.5 mg, 2019, Oct 18: 6.25 mg ESCITALOPRAM (Sep 2017-June 2019) 5 mg, Final taper: 5 mg > 2.5mg, then 2.5 every other day, then stop) Link to comment
Ktven48 Posted November 5, 2021 Share Posted November 5, 2021 How are you Bea? Dec 2017 Zoloft 3 nights - bad reaction end up in hospital // Jan 2018-Jan 2019- Venlafaxine 75mg Trazadone 200mgstarted in hospital // 2019-2020 - Slow venlafaxine taper ended up at 3 beads in mid 2020 pretty flawless taper with minimal withdrawal Symptoms was on 10-20mg PRN adderall during this time // Jan 2021-March 2021 Miscarriage, Adderall CT, Vaccine still on 3 beads // April 2021-July 2021 Start experiencing withdrawal type symptoms, depression anxiety not sure why - increased to 5-10 beads over two months // July 2021 Pregnant // August 2021 tried to wean down back to 3 beads // September 2021 Hard crash - insomnia, akathisia, panic attacks, cortisol rushes, constant adrenaline rushes, depression, no appetite, nausea on and off, muscle pain // current: October 7th Reinstated 37.5mg of Venlafaxine 200mg Trazadone // 5-10 mg of propranolol Clonazepam PRN last dose Oct 6th trying to stay off Supplements: Occasional L-theanine Prenatal mag citrate 400–600mg before bed Link to comment
Bea81 Posted November 10, 2021 Author Share Posted November 10, 2021 Hi and thanks to all that has asked for me. I was diagnosed with an overactive thyroid and most likely Graves disease two weeks ago. Im not in a good place and struggeling to understand this. I still belive this has to do with WD. That wd has set this off. But it still needs to be treated since my pulse and heart rate was so high the doctor got worried. So I started medication about a week ago. All the symptoms from overactive thyroid is almost the same as from wd so like I said Im very confussed and weird feeling about all of it. The blood tests dont lie tho so not taking the medication wasent an option. Not having any bad effects from it as far as I can tell, then again things have been so bad that I dont know whats normal anymore 😉 Im meeting with a specialist at the hospital next week and can get more answers then. Many people get cured from thyroid illness so Im keeping my spirits up. My doctor is not down playing my wd and he said without me even asking that my health issues is a mix of thyroid illness, wd and underlaying trauma but he is still in good spirits about me being able to heal. Im thankful for having this doctor since as we all now, a good doctor is not a given. The last days have been a haze, just tired of it all, worn out and just wanting to forget about these last 3-4 months and be normal. But so many have worse health issues and problems than me and I try on a daily basis to tell myself not to complain and get stuck in the self pity. My family have and is amazing thru all this, same with a couple of friends. Im trying to pet myself on the back too and remind myself Im a fighter. I thought I was gonna die a little over two weeks ago, Ive never had any fear of death or illness before and it was a powerful and strange feeling. But I knew something was wrong and right after I get the diagnosis. Im here still tho, I did survive and will continue to fight. Thanks again every one of you for checking in and I truly hope all of you are feeling some improvment. ❤️❤️ Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Bea81 Posted November 10, 2021 Author Share Posted November 10, 2021 Hi and thanks to all that has asked for me. I was diagnosed with an overactive thyroid and most likely Graves disease two weeks ago. Im not in a good place and struggeling to understand this. I still belive this has to do with WD. That wd has set this off. But it still needs to be treated since my pulse and heart rate was so high the doctor got worried. So I started medication about a week ago. All the symptoms from overactive thyroid is almost the same as from wd so like I said Im very confussed and weird feeling about all of it. The blood tests dont lie tho so not taking the medication wasent an option. Not having any bad effects from it as far as I can tell, then again things have been so bad that I dont know whats normal anymore 😉 Im meeting with a specialist at the hospital next week and can get more answers then. Many people get cured from thyroid illness so Im keeping my spirits up. My doctor is not down playing my wd and he said without me even asking that my health issues is a mix of thyroid illness, wd and underlaying trauma but he is still in good spirits about me being able to heal. Im thankful for having this doctor since as we all now, a good doctor is not a given. The last days have been a haze, just tired of it all, worn out and just wanting to forget about these last 3-4 months and be normal. But so many have worse health issues and problems than me and I try on a daily basis to tell myself not to complain and get stuck in the self pity. My family have and is amazing thru all this, same with a couple of friends. Im trying to pet myself on the back too and remind myself Im a fighter. I thought I was gonna die a little over two weeks ago, Ive never had any fear of death or illness before and it was a powerful and strange feeling. But I knew something was wrong and right after I get the diagnosis. Im here still tho, I did survive and will continue to fight. Thanks again every one of you for checking in and I truly hope all of you are feeling some improvment. ❤️❤️ Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted November 15, 2021 Mentor Share Posted November 15, 2021 @Bea81 Yes, you are a fighter. How are things going now? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted November 17, 2021 Author Share Posted November 17, 2021 On 11/15/2021 at 4:45 PM, Greatful said: @Bea81 Yes, you are a fighter. How are things going now? @Greatful,Im ok. Was admitted to the hospital on saturday since they feared a thyroid storm but it was ruled out and the doctor promised me that the medication is working and that I will be feeling better within a few weeks. Its been a hell of a ride and I can see I've been in a crisis mode just to keep going but I have no doubt at this point that I will heal from both wd and the thyroid problems. How are you? ❤️ Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Bea81 Posted December 24, 2021 Author Share Posted December 24, 2021 Im curious if maybe this isn't the right platform for me anymore since after I shared I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism it went silent on my thread. Am I supposed to mainly just share withdrawal related issues here? Since my struggles are a mix of illness and wd I feel I fall between two chairs if that makes sense to anyone? Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted December 26, 2021 Mentor Share Posted December 26, 2021 @Bea81 Hi Bea, Please do not ever think you are on the wrong support site. There are members on here that have medical issues as well as WD. I think many of us take small breaks from the site for boundary reasons. I can say for myself that I've been more quite on here because I have not energy as of late. I think the season change, the holiday's, worn out with WD. I kind of feel like I am in a hibernation mode. How are things going for you right now?❤️ Please continue to give up dates. https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Moonpie Posted December 26, 2021 Mentor Share Posted December 26, 2021 @Bea81you are on the right support site. I am Sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I also have hypothyroidism. For the last 22 years. In fact the foolish choice to tinker with my medication put me in a thyroid storm that took my thyroid 8 months to to balance itself. And that is how I ended up on these meds. I'm glad you are here. Nobody is ignored on purpose, forgotten I forgotten or not cared about. Sometimes when a post of mine isn't answered I will just ask again. Many of the moderators are facing the same things we are and they have their ups and downs and struggles. Others that have won the victory diligently try to take care of all of us but have families jobs and a life that requires our attention. Hang in there you will make it! I promise you you won't find anymore caring or knowledgeable group. They have been an enormous support and help to me the last 5 years. .025 Xanax 3 x daily Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014. Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014. Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014. 50mg. 6-2014. through 7-14-2014 . Started tapering 7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014. I did 1/4 of the dose a month. small discomfort. These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication. Was in ER twice for possible heart attack. INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear. Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks. Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg 9-2105. After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025 at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed. Was only on it about 2 weeks. Was not working. Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted. switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg three x daily -start date 9/24/16. Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly. Buspar .5mg -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 . Lexapro .10mg start date - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 by weight of pill every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD. Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro. .001 gm every 4 days. Held longer if there was WD. Last doses some I held a month. OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, AM and Pm doses. Reinstated 9-22-16. Began Buspar taper 1-29-23, .001 mg by weight of pills. N.P. Desiccated Thyroid. 1-2023 Labs okay but not where I feel best. 60 mg. daily now but adding 15 mg. more twice weekly for a few months then check. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp. 1 time daily My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering Link to comment
Bea81 Posted December 28, 2021 Author Share Posted December 28, 2021 On 12/26/2021 at 3:15 PM, Greatful said: @Bea81 Hi Bea, Please do not ever think you are on the wrong support site. There are members on here that have medical issues as well as WD. I think many of us take small breaks from the site for boundary reasons. I can say for myself that I've been more quite on here because I have not energy as of late. I think the season change, the holiday's, worn out with WD. I kind of feel like I am in a hibernation mode. How are things going for you right now?❤️ Please continue to give up dates. @Greatful, hi and thank you for dropping by :-) Im having a window today and its well, beyond good. Just trying to enjoy it while it lasts. Its been a mix of quite good windows and really bad waves the last weeks, like down in a pitch black terrifying place into an almost bright and blissful one. Its strange but I take it as a good sign that I am indeed recovering. The thyroid medication is working, my physician was happy to see my blood work is getting more towards a normal level. I think you were very wise to take some time of. Really, anything you can do to make this journey even just slightly easyer is good. ❤️ 1 Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Bea81 Posted December 28, 2021 Author Share Posted December 28, 2021 On 12/26/2021 at 3:45 PM, Moonpie said: @Bea81you are on the right support site. I am Sorry to hear of your diagnosis. I also have hypothyroidism. For the last 22 years. In fact the foolish choice to tinker with my medication put me in a thyroid storm that took my thyroid 8 months to to balance itself. And that is how I ended up on these meds. I'm glad you are here. Nobody is ignored on purpose, forgotten I forgotten or not cared about. Sometimes when a post of mine isn't answered I will just ask again. Many of the moderators are facing the same things we are and they have their ups and downs and struggles. Others that have won the victory diligently try to take care of all of us but have families jobs and a life that requires our attention. Hang in there you will make it! I promise you you won't find anymore caring or knowledgeable group. They have been an enormous support and help to me the last 5 years. @Moonpie,hi and thank you for stopping by! Oh, you had a thyroid storm? That must have been so scary and hard to deal with.. But you are stabile now with your hyperthyroidism? I'm surtain the wd "gave" me this disease but at the same time its no point obsessing about it. I want to look forward now and do my part to heal. This is a good place with wonderful people. How are you doing these days with everything? 🌸 Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Moonpie Posted December 29, 2021 Mentor Share Posted December 29, 2021 @Bea81 Yes My thyroid is very stable now. Now I am doing great I haven't had to have an adjustment in thyroid meds since then. It was very scary. My husband had died the year before and I was alone. But like I said it was all my fault for tampering with my dosage. You are so very right it does no good to obsess. I know that is hard when you are facing your anxiety. It does take time and it is easy to want to rush it when we suffer.. But the goal is to heal not to go to quick. You will find such great support and advise here along your journey. You have a wonderful attitude about doing your part to heal. I plan to post an update soon but have been sick. I am seeing significant improvements! Thank you for asking. .025 Xanax 3 x daily Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014. Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014. Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014. 50mg. 6-2014. through 7-14-2014 . Started tapering 7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014. I did 1/4 of the dose a month. small discomfort. These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication. Was in ER twice for possible heart attack. INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear. Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks. Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg 9-2105. After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025 at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed. Was only on it about 2 weeks. Was not working. Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted. switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg three x daily -start date 9/24/16. Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly. Buspar .5mg -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 . Lexapro .10mg start date - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 by weight of pill every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD. Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro. .001 gm every 4 days. Held longer if there was WD. Last doses some I held a month. OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, AM and Pm doses. Reinstated 9-22-16. Began Buspar taper 1-29-23, .001 mg by weight of pills. N.P. Desiccated Thyroid. 1-2023 Labs okay but not where I feel best. 60 mg. daily now but adding 15 mg. more twice weekly for a few months then check. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp. 1 time daily My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering Link to comment
Bea81 Posted December 31, 2021 Author Share Posted December 31, 2021 On 12/29/2021 at 7:02 AM, Moonpie said: @Bea81 Yes My thyroid is very stable now. Now I am doing great I haven't had to have an adjustment in thyroid meds since then. It was very scary. My husband had died the year before and I was alone. But like I said it was all my fault for tampering with my dosage. You are so very right it does no good to obsess. I know that is hard when you are facing your anxiety. It does take time and it is easy to want to rush it when we suffer.. But the goal is to heal not to go to quick. You will find such great support and advise here along your journey. You have a wonderful attitude about doing your part to heal. I plan to post an update soon but have been sick. I am seeing significant improvements! Thank you for asking. @Moonpie,I am so relieved you have a stable thyroid now. Can only imagine how much pain you were in having lost your husband and then had to endure a thyroid storm. It tells me you are such a strong person making it thru that. So its almost a new year.. Do you enjoy new years eve normally? I dont, hee hee. The noises gets to me and I managed to be ok with it for years but well, this year Im a nervous ball of pain it seem. Went into a wave late on wednesday and its bad today so Im listening to calming music in the room were to noise is not gonna be extreme and belive the cat will join me soon. He dosent like the fireworks either poor guy. Are you ok today? Love your profile picture buy the way, just beautiful. 🌸 Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Moonpie Posted January 1, 2022 Mentor Share Posted January 1, 2022 Hi @Bea81, My church usually has a watch night service. We play games, eat and at midnight go to the altar and pray the new year in. But this year we aren't having it. Bill, my dog in the picture is happy with me staying home. LOL Bill doesn't like fireworks either. He will even open cabinet doors and get in and hide. He is my Buddy and my sweetheart. I am sorry you are in a wave. Always know it won't always be this way and a window will come. I have been sick since the day after Christmas. I have been blessed has it hasn't been really bad, the congestion and all but I am so tired. Not sleeping because of WD. But things could be and have been far worse. Hope you have a wonderful new year! We will be another year closer to healing. Take care! .025 Xanax 3 x daily Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014. Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014. Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014. 50mg. 6-2014. through 7-14-2014 . Started tapering 7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014. I did 1/4 of the dose a month. small discomfort. These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication. Was in ER twice for possible heart attack. INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear. Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks. Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg 9-2105. After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025 at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed. Was only on it about 2 weeks. Was not working. Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted. switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg three x daily -start date 9/24/16. Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly. Buspar .5mg -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 . Lexapro .10mg start date - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 by weight of pill every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD. Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro. .001 gm every 4 days. Held longer if there was WD. Last doses some I held a month. OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, AM and Pm doses. Reinstated 9-22-16. Began Buspar taper 1-29-23, .001 mg by weight of pills. N.P. Desiccated Thyroid. 1-2023 Labs okay but not where I feel best. 60 mg. daily now but adding 15 mg. more twice weekly for a few months then check. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp. 1 time daily My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering Link to comment
Bea81 Posted January 3, 2022 Author Share Posted January 3, 2022 On 1/1/2022 at 2:17 AM, Moonpie said: Hi @Bea81, My church usually has a watch night service. We play games, eat and at midnight go to the altar and pray the new year in. But this year we aren't having it. Bill, my dog in the picture is happy with me staying home. LOL Bill doesn't like fireworks either. He will even open cabinet doors and get in and hide. He is my Buddy and my sweetheart. I am sorry you are in a wave. Always know it won't always be this way and a window will come. I have been sick since the day after Christmas. I have been blessed has it hasn't been really bad, the congestion and all but I am so tired. Not sleeping because of WD. But things could be and have been far worse. Hope you have a wonderful new year! We will be another year closer to healing. Take care! @Moonpie,are you feeling any better? Oh, you describing Bill made me smile. He sounds like such a beautiful companion ❤️ May I ask how long it took before your thyroid stabilized? And did you experience health anxiety when you were diagnosed? I have never had fear of illness before, or fear of death until about a month ago and it keeps coming on waves. Its new to me and terrifying to say the least. Also I dont know anymore what is anxiety and what is physical symptoms that I should maybe get checked out. I dont see the point of running to the er or doctor everytime I feel horrible yet dont want to wait it out to much either in case it is indeed something serious. They have already checked my heart and it is healthy and shows no strain from my high pulse and they have as far as I know ruled out that there is anything else physically wrong with me other than hyperthyroidism. But it still throws me that I can get this sick from that and wd. I keep thinking there must be more wrong with me cause I feel like Im going under today. Dont know if Im making sense but if or when you have some time and energy I would really appreciate hearing about your experience with hyperthyroidism and maybe also that together with wd. 🌸 Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Moonpie Posted January 4, 2022 Mentor Share Posted January 4, 2022 @Bea81how are you feeling? I am sorry you are having such a hard time. I am doing better. After 7 days of being sick and now that I realize it in a wave, I woke up today much better! I have hypothyroidism. When I tampered with my meds in 2016 and went into a thyroid storm I bounced back and forth between the 2. My health anxiety and evening fearing death at times came during that storm and returned when I began tapering my meds then going off the Lexapro. It took 8 months for my thyroid to stabilize on my meds and they said it could take up to 10 months. There have been times I had symptoms and thought it was my thyroid but tests revealed it was not. WD can mimic thyroid symptoms. I had no fear of illness before that either. I have one health fear I battle and it came about the 2 nd month after I went off Lexapro due to one lab that was a little off. The doctor wasn't at all concerned. I know it is a neuro fear/ neuro emotion I would not be having it it wasn't for my withdraw. After all these years of tapering and withdraw I am learning to do some mental gymnastics. I work hard on refusing to dwell on it and work at thinking on other things in spite of what I feel. When I get insecure and begin wonder I come here and there is always someone to encourage me and reassure me. @Frogie has been a BIG support and help. Everyone here is going through the same things or has had the victory and healed. You will receive a lot of understanding If the doctors have given you a clean health slate other than your thyroid, try to remind yourself each time a symptom appears. It may be you need to every few minutes! WD is incredible in what it does to you physically and emotionally. It can make you feel very sick! I have had symptoms that I finally realized were simply WD even though they aren't listed anywhere. Doing a search of the site most of the time there will be someone that has had the same thing. These drugs are powerful and make changes in our CNS we cannot even begin to imagine until we go off them. Yes it is terrifying and I agree, it is nothing like I have EVER experienced. I had panic attacks and anxiety before this but now it is like it is all on steroids, so intense. It looks like you did fairly fast taper and that can add to the intensity. I know it doesn't help but all you are experiencing is normal. And you will make it through, you will heal but it will take time. There are links on self care and dealing with this. I am sorry but I don't know where they are. Shamefully after 5 years I am still learning to navigate the site. I know I have had a lot of food sensitives come up with this and avoid what I know will cause anxiety. I can finally drink 1 cup of tea in the morning. We can't make it go away but we can get through it. The loss of your pet and friend has a big impact on all of this too. I am so sorry for you losses. Please hang in there and don't give up. You are not alone. You will heal! .025 Xanax 3 x daily Start date 10-13-2013 through 8-13-2014. Started tapering 6-2014 to 8-2014. Some small discomfort. 25 mg Zoloft - Start date 5-1-2014. 50mg. 6-2014. through 7-14-2014 . Started tapering 7-14-2014, stopped tapering 10-2014. I did 1/4 of the dose a month. small discomfort. These next 3 were prescribed when I made some seriously bad choices with my thyroid medication. Was in ER twice for possible heart attack. INTENSE anxiety, panic, fear. Lost 30 pounds in 2 weeks. Thyroid levels bounced to extremes for 8 months. Dr. prescribed Zoloft 50mg 9-2105. After 2 doses had a bad reaction passed out in my bedroom. Also prescribed Xanax .025 at the same time. 3 times daily, 4 if needed. Was only on it about 2 weeks. Was not working. Trip ER they gave me an Ativan IV and it worked and lasted. switched to Ativan. 9-24-2016. 1.5 mg Ativan - .5 mg three x daily -start date 9/24/16. Attempted taper start 12-16-2016. Was shaving Pills and alternating tapering AM, PM and midday dose weekly. Buspar .5mg -2.5mg. am and 2. 5mg. pm start date 9-26-2016 . Lexapro .10mg start date - 10-26-2016. Found SA and began 10/14/2017 tapering .001 by weight of pill every 4 days Held longer if there were was WD. Was very sensitive to Ativan. 3-15-2018 Off midday dose - 7-16-2018 Off PM dose - OFF ATIVAN! 11-17-2018 10 mg. Lexapro. PM - 5 mg start date 10/11/2016 increased to 10 mg 2/2/17. 1-1-2019 Began tapering Lexapro. .001 gm every 4 days. Held longer if there was WD. Last doses some I held a month. OFF LEXAPRO! 2-21 2021 5 mg. Buspar divided into two, 2.5 mg doses AM and PM- Start date 9/26/2016 Cold turkey on Dr. direction, AM and Pm doses. Reinstated 9-22-16. Began Buspar taper 1-29-23, .001 mg by weight of pills. N.P. Desiccated Thyroid. 1-2023 Labs okay but not where I feel best. 60 mg. daily now but adding 15 mg. more twice weekly for a few months then check. Bioidentical hormones. Bi-est/Prog cream, 1/4 tsp. 1 time daily My intro: Moonpie:. Need help and supporting tapering off of Ativan My benzo thread: Moonpie: Need help Ativan weight tapering Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted January 6, 2022 Mentor Share Posted January 6, 2022 @Bea81 Hi Bea, Stopping by to say hi and see how you are doing? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted January 8, 2022 Author Share Posted January 8, 2022 On 1/6/2022 at 4:21 PM, Greatful said: @Bea81 Hi Bea, Stopping by to say hi and see how you are doing? @Greatful, I am very very bad. Just read JesusSaveMeFromWD thread and it sums up how I am. At most I have one ok or somewhat good day in between all bad and I just dont know what to do anymore. I dont even know if I can be helped? Have you had dp that has lifted a bit and also anakthisia ? You seem to have such faith and I try to have that too but its slipping. Im desperate that at least have a few more ok days cause Im afraid that if I continue like this it will end me. And the fear of even thinking that no one may not be able to help is numbing. Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Bea81 Posted January 8, 2022 Author Share Posted January 8, 2022 @Altostrata,if you have the time could you please give me advice on whether I should consider reinstate a low dose of Zoloft? They way things are and have been with me now for a long time is unbearable, but of course I cant risk it getting any worse either. Thank you. Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted January 8, 2022 Mentor Share Posted January 8, 2022 @Bea81 Bea I can assure you I have to work on this 75% of the time. I so am ready for this to be over. I have the same thoughts, will I get passed this/can I get passed this I am 58 years old, I've been on meds for over 20 years. I can say the drugs didn't take care of my problems just masked them. Now I have to deal with them and grow, heal. This is horrible but would I have ever addressed my problems without going through this? I was reminded that our brains heal recently when I read that Happy2heal is healed after being poly drugged for I think 43 years. She is drug free and loving life. Have you read her story? It looks like you are having windows ( I have mostly dirty window I think it Rosetta that uses this term). I can say in the last few days I have some clearing in those dirty window. Re read "What happening in your Brain" http://What is happening in your brain? Hubby reminds me of this story when my brain is so disconnected and I start to have crazy fears again. Our brains are not connecting right. Have you watched the Documentary Medicating Normal Here is a link to their website. I has a small fee but well worth it. We need to get the message out there to the public, doctors family, friends etc. http:// www.medicatingnormal.com I still have drdp and what ever else they call it when you don't feel totally hear or connected to other people. Like you are here but separate from everyone else. Unfortunately I had a little of this on the meds too. Now in WD it can be morphed. I found out you can have it from trauma also. I do fight it with trying to clear my head and I want so much to be more grounded in the present. I do feel more and more grounding going on as I go through this nightmare sometimes. Up and down can get so hard. But I think it helps to understand what it is, so you can try and control how much of a reaction/fear afraid you are going to give it. It is so unbalancing and it can feel terrifying at times. I hate it when I get it and I feel like I might do something bad. The inner anxiety is horrible. I did get a little break for a few evenings last week. I want to stress to listen to your body, rest when you need to, don't push yourself to hard both physical or emotional, limit your stress, and Love yourself for today and the future.❤️ Bea you can do this keep reaching out , find different ways to motivate yourself, educate to help you feel like you are taking back some control. Do you ever go on the inner compose website (they are one of the sponsors for the documentary) here is there link https://withdrawal.theinnercompass.org/ You have just as much strength if not more then me Miss Bea. ❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted January 17, 2022 Author Share Posted January 17, 2022 @Greatful,Im so sorry Im delayed again in my respond. I saw on you own thread that you are suffering and Im so sorry. For me too it has been worse than ever most of January and Im at a loss. I am truly trying to help myself and have also asked for help from my doctor and then he got me refered to a acute psych team that I have been in dialogs with since friday. But even with all this Im just lost. The panic is sometimes all consuming and reach a level were I was seconds away from falling to the flor in front of my partner and beg him to help me. The desperation is raw. Today has been weird cause the panic is so much lesser but it has been traded in with a zombie like state and a sadness felt to the core, BUT I have glimpses of seeing the real me. Like only seconds at a time but it means something good still. Im so unsure wether to reinstate a tiny tiny amount of zoloft. It will feel like both a failure but also a gamble. We'll see. Sending love your way. ❤️ Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted January 17, 2022 Mentor Share Posted January 17, 2022 @Bea81 You are doing great Bea and I feel your pain and panic. Yes you are in there and just waiting to come all the way to the surface. I think reinstate or finding something to stop the pain is a common thought on here. Each one of has to come to decide what works best for themselves. Never, never think of yourself as a failure. This is horrible and inhuman and bring most of us to our knees a time or two. You have endured this for over 6 or so months, that is quite a accomplishment.❤️ Do you think you can hold on for a little longer? I have broken down several times in front of hubby. Gut wrenching sobs horribly a few times. Sometimes I just go in the bedroom to cry and let out the pain. Go back and read success stories I bought the book Recovery and Renewal by Baylissa Frederick. She has recovered from acute-withdrawal and protracted withdrawal. How is the thyroid doing? Can you get therapy? We started this journey around the same time and I hope the 2 of us can write our own success stories.❤️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted January 29, 2022 Mentor Share Posted January 29, 2022 @Bea81 How are you doing? Sending you a hug🤗 Do you think the winter weather is affecting you, adding on blah and down moods? https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted February 3, 2022 Author Share Posted February 3, 2022 On 1/29/2022 at 8:16 PM, Greatful said: @Bea81 How are you doing? Sending you a hug🤗 Do you think the winter weather is affecting you, adding on blah and down moods? @Greatful,hi and how are you? I didnt get a notification or else I would of answered sooner.. Im not so good. Going between extremely fatigued and extrem anxiety. Im tired of just waiting and hanging in there if that makes sense? Normally I havent been affected by the weather but yes I belive I am at this point. Are you affected by it too? Love the picture of your adorable dog ❤️ Big hug to you ❤️❤️ Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted February 12, 2022 Mentor Share Posted February 12, 2022 @Bea81 Stopping by to send a hug and see how you are doing?🤗 https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Mentor Greatful Posted March 18, 2022 Mentor Share Posted March 18, 2022 @Bea81 Bea are you okay?........I hope things have improved to a manageable state.♥️ https://www.survivingantidepressants.org/topic/24894-greatful-is-this-withdrawal-or-to-many-med-changes-at-once/ 1995? Prozac, tried several Paxil, Serzone, St John's Wart back to Prozac and Trazodone ct:d Traz Lexapro. Tried to stop Crash in 2015 Kindled Hospitalized, Vybrid, Seroquel, Effexor, Abilify Pristiq, Wellbutrin-- 2016 ended back on Prozac and Lamictal 200mg 5/2020 thru 12/2020 taper from 20mg Prozac down to 3mg. Crashed 12/13/2020 Zoloft 50mg 1/29ct 1/29/2021 Seroquel 50mg ct 2/12/2021 Wellbutrin 75mg. Became hypo manic 2/1 6ct Trazodone 50mg 4/25 25mg 2/5/ 2021 Lamictal 150mg. 2/24 100mg 4/9 75mg 4/21 37.5 2/16/2021 Seroquel 50xr 3/3 100mg 3/17 150mg side effects ct 4/3 2021 Lexapro 5mg 4/14 7.5mg 4/30 10mg 5/10 7.5mg 2021/ 5/16 5mg Lexapro 37.5 Lamictal 25mg trazadone, xanax .0625mg 3x a day Lexapro Taper> Sept/01/2021 4.90mg> Sept/25 4.75mg> Oct/19 4.69mg > Nov/14 4.2mg Jan/30/2022-- Split dosing 2x a day All liquid 4.2mg (2.20mg at 8am & 2mg at 4pm) 2/17 4mg> 2/24 3.8mg slow taper to Aug/12/2022 2.04mg 2023> 2mg, 1.90mg, 1.80mg, 1.70mg, 1.5mg, 1.4mg, 1.3mg 1.2mg, 1.1mg, 1mg, 0.9mg, 0.8mg, 0.7mg 0.65mg, 0.6mg, 0.55mg, 0.5mg, 0.45mg, 0.4mg, 0.35mg, 0.3mg, 0.25,mg, back to once a day dosing 0 .1mg, 0.07mg , 0.05mg 4/1/2024 0 Lamictal taper 4/17/ 2022 25mg, 9/9/ 22 -20mg, 9/25/22- 15mg , 10/20/22- 0 Trazodone..2023.>down to 14mg, 7mg, 6mg July 2023 Xanax 0.0625mgai 3 x a day, 2023> 0.042mgai 3x a day 2024> 0.034mgai 3x a day >0.03mgaix3=.09mgai Supplements Magnesium glycinate, Omega 3, D3, vitamin c , zinc, NAC Link to comment
Bea81 Posted April 8, 2022 Author Share Posted April 8, 2022 @Altostrata or @Frogie could one of you please assist me in a possible re-instatment? Im worse than ever and have no fight left in me. I am now 8 months off. I went off at 12.5 mg Zoloft so should I then go back on that amount or less? And for how long do I stay on it to know if its helping? Also what to look out for in case I get a bad reaction? I belive Ive had a mental breakdown so my panic has been beyond severe. And the panic attacks are on a different level than anything I have experienced, I will get them up to 6-7 times a day and will hyperventilate until I near pass out. My partner has taken lots off of work to be with me so none of this can continue. I cant risk falling apart even more. I will be deeply thankful for your reply! Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus ChessieCat Posted April 8, 2022 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted April 8, 2022 I will give you some information about reinstating Zoloft, however before you try reinstating I would like @Frogie to comment on whether what you are experiencing might be caused or increased by the withdrawal from the benzo. (Thanks Frogie). When reinstating it is better to start with a very low dose, especially after having been off the drug for many months. Taking too high a dose can sometimes make things worse. Personally I think it is better to start with a tiny dose to test to see how you react to taking the drug again. You could try 0.25mg (yes 1/4 mg) Zoloft first. If after 1 week there has be no bad reaction and you have noticed no improvement you could try taking a tiny bit more, eg 0.5mg total dose. It is better to make small increases gradually than to risk taking too much. And the idea of reinstating is not to get rid of withdrawal symptoms completely but to bring them to a bearable level. You will need to be patient and try not to panic, which might cause you to make bad decisions and take too much or try a different drug or supplement. It takes about 4 days for a dose to get to full level in the blood and a bit longer for it to register in the brain. Please carefully read Post #1 of this topic: About reinstating and stabilizing to reduce withdrawal symptoms Post #1 of this topic explains how to get non standards doses: Tips for tapering off sertraline (Zoloft) * NO LONGER ACTIVE on SA * MISSION ACCOMPLISHED: (6 year taper) 0mg Pristiq on 13th November 2021 ADs since ~1992: 25+ years - 1 unknown, Prozac (muscle weakness), Zoloft; citalopram (pooped out) CTed (very sick for 2.5 wks a few months after); Pristiq: 50mg 2012, 100mg beg 2013 (Serotonin Toxicity) Tapering from Oct 2015 - 13 Nov 2021 LAST DOSE 0.0025mg Post 0 updates start here My tapering program My Intro (goes to tapering graph) VIDEO: Antidepressant Withdrawal Syndrome and its Management Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted April 8, 2022 Moderator Share Posted April 8, 2022 @Bea81 Are you still on Oxazepam or did you go off of it also, as it shows in your signature you are still on it. If you are, you could try tapering 10% of that. Being off of Zoloft could be causing your Oxazepam to have a stronger reaction in your body. If you are indeed off, it is difficult to reinstate a benzo as your body can become kindled since you have been off for over a year. It's just not advisable to go on a benzo if you have been off of it for more than a few weeks. But it has been done successfully with some members. You could try a very small amount, approximately 1-2mg or so and see if that brings any relief. PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. Last dose June 24, 2024 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Bea81 Posted April 8, 2022 Author Share Posted April 8, 2022 20 minutes ago, Frogie said: @Bea81 Are you still on Oxazepam or did you go off of it also, as it shows in your signature you are still on it. If you are, you could try tapering 10% of that. Being off of Zoloft could be causing your Oxazepam to have a stronger reaction in your body. If you are indeed off, it is difficult to reinstate a benzo as your body can become kindled since you have been off for over a year. It's just not advisable to go on a benzo if you have been off of it for more than a few weeks. But it has been done successfully with some members. You could try a very small amount, approximately 1-2mg or so and see if that brings any relief. Im still on Oxazepam and haven't done any changes with that. Its the Zoloft Im wondering if I should reinstate? Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Moderator Frogie Posted April 8, 2022 Moderator Share Posted April 8, 2022 @Bea81 As @ChessieCat explained to you and did give you information on reinstating to see if that would help. You could follow her instructions and let us know if that would help. PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Have been on medications since 1996. Valium, Gabapentin, Lamictal, Prilosec and Zantac from 2000 to 2015 with a fast taper by a psychiatrist. Liquid Lexapro Nov, 2016 to 31-March, 2019 Lexapro free!!! (total Lexapro taper was 4 years-started with pill form) ---CURRENT MEDICATIONS:Supplements:Milk Thistle, Metamucil, Magnesium Citrate, Vitamin D3, Levothyroxine 25mcg, Vitamin C, Krill oil. Xanax 1mg 3x day June, 2000 to 19-September, 2020 Went from .150 grams (average weight of 1 Xanax) 3x day to .003 grams 3x day. April 1, 2021 went back on 1mg a day. Started tapering May 19, 2023. July 28, 2023-approximately .87mg. Dr. fast tapered me at the end and realized he messed up. Prescribe it again and I am doing "slower than a turtle" taper. Last dose June 24, 2024 19-September, 2020 Xanax free!!! (total Xanax taper was 15-1/2 months-1-June, 2019-19-September, 2020) I am not a medical professional. The suggestions I make are based on personal experience. Link to comment
Bea81 Posted April 8, 2022 Author Share Posted April 8, 2022 2 hours ago, Frogie said: @Bea81 As @ChessieCat explained to you and did give you information on reinstating to see if that would help. You could follow her instructions and let us know if that would help. Thank you so much! I will try that. Thank you again! 🌸 Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
Bea81 Posted April 8, 2022 Author Share Posted April 8, 2022 7 hours ago, ChessieCat said: I will give you some information about reinstating Zoloft, however before you try reinstating I would like @Frogie to comment on whether what you are experiencing might be caused or increased by the withdrawal from the benzo. (Thanks Frogie). When reinstating it is better to start with a very low dose, especially after having been off the drug for many months. Taking too high a dose can sometimes make things worse. Personally I think it is better to start with a tiny dose to test to see how you react to taking the drug again. You could try 0.25mg (yes 1/4 mg) Zoloft first. If after 1 week there has be no bad reaction and you have noticed no improvement you could try taking a tiny bit more, eg 0.5mg total dose. It is better to make small increases gradually than to risk taking too much. And the idea of reinstating is not to get rid of withdrawal symptoms completely but to bring them to a bearable level. You will need to be patient and try not to panic, which might cause you to make bad decisions and take too much or try a different drug or supplement. It takes about 4 days for a dose to get to full level in the blood and a bit longer for it to register in the brain. Please carefully read Post #1 of this topic: About reinstating and stabilizing to reduce withdrawal symptoms Post #1 of this topic explains how to get non standards doses: Tips for tapering off sertraline (Zoloft) Thank you so much for you response and advice! I will try that. Just need to make clear that Im not in benzo withdrawal. I have not made any changes in that dose. So just so that I understood correctly, I should take even less than 12.5 mg Zoloft? Thats the amount I went off. Cause I had trouble cutting the 50 mg and 25 mg into even smaller doses so dont know how I could cut them into accurate 0.25 mg. Sorry but I have severe brain fog. 🌸 Zoloft 200 mg: 2001-2021 Oxazepam 45 mg: 2001-2021. Was on both these drugs for 20 years. Tapped of Zoloft in mid April 2021 and went of them the beginning of June 2021. I am still on Oxazepam. Link to comment
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